Losing weight is often portrayed as a straightforward journey - eat less, move more. However, for many individuals, including myself, this path towards a healthier weight is far more complex than a mere mathematical equation of calories in versus calories out. Join me as I unveil the layers of my weight loss journey, filled with struggles, victories, setbacks, and ultimately, self-discovery.
The Beginning
I started my weight loss journey with the goal to improve my health, building my confidence, and making me feel happier inside and out. I wanted to start feeling stronger and being able to look in the mirror and not have my mind comparing me to things such as a "whale" or a pregnant woman due to how big my stomach is. I think a big part of this was instilled in my childhood where, growing up, I was told that I was fat or compared to an elephant or even worse provided the statement, "I am surprised the plane did not crash due to your weight". All these negative words or statement did a number to my mental state where in the end I have not only seen wins, based on my drive, but I also saw a lot of setbacks.
The Turning Point
Amidst the sea of fad diets and unrealistic expectations, I reached a pivotal moment in my journey after looking at myself in the mirror and seeing how wide I got and how big my stomach got due to many factors, whether it be due to stress, emotional eating, or even due to my medication. Thinking about my past and how mean people were to me due to my weight, it lit a fire in me and pushed me to really focus on my journey to shed the weight and prove to those who were mean to me that they are wrong and can eat their words.
The Process
In the process, I have worked with mutiple trainers and enrolled myself in multiple programs. I have tried everything from in person training and online training, however I find myself still struggling in loosing and maintaining the weight loss. I have noticed that, due to my cravings, I have found myself in a yo-yo frenzee. I would be so determined in the beginning, loose the weight, but due to restrictive dieting, I would gain it back and more in an instant.
I have invested so much money but in the end, finding that I have wasted the money as for some reason, I cannot stick to a plan or I would give up so easily. The challenge is being able to cut the cravings, eliminate the processed foods, and learn to love whole foods. I keep asking myself why the determination on others is so quick, but when it comes to my motivation it starts well but dwindles after a month or so.
I have yet to find a program and trainer that actually understands my needs and can really provide me with the support I need to make this journey a success. I have been given the tool, but why can't I seem to stick to a program?
I watched all these fitness influencers and YouTube videos where the women make weight loss look so easy, but I know it is due to determination. I need to remind myself on my "Why" and really not allow my mental head space, excuses, and weaknesses hinder me from accomplishing what I want.
I know if I set my mind to this and really hone in on my goals I will see the results I want and use that as fuel to keep me going.
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